Monday, December 30, 2013
Where is your Faith?
I was listening to Saturday afternoon session of conference and one of the brethren shared a story about a young married couple who were debating about not having a family until he had finished medical school.
He wound up sitting in President Kimball’s office and found himself visiting with the Prophet about the decision he and his wife were in the process of making.
President Kimball listened and then softly made this comment,
“Would the Lord want you to break one of His commandments, so that you can become a doctor?...Where is your Faith?”
What a powerful question which would require one to dig deep into the depths of their soul to answer. What is faith? “Faith is to hope for things which are not seen but which are true.
(Hebrews 11:1, Alma 32:21) and most be centered in Jesus Christ in order to produce salvation.”
What are the requirements of Faith? “To have faith is to have confidence in something or someone. The Lord has revealed himself and His perfect character possessing in their fullness all the attributes of love, knowledge, justice, mercy, unchangeableness, power and every needful thing, so as to enable the mind of men to place confidence in Him without reservation.” (Bible Dictionary)
Many years ago I was told that I would never be able to bear children.
I become pregnant and lost our babies each time. It was quite an emotional roller coaster.
There was a period of peace where I felt I was finally starting to heal from the heartache of that roller coaster. During that period I once again found myself sitting in my doctor’s office awaiting results. The results had come back uncertain so my doctor was explaining to me what possibly could be wrong.
The first thing was pregnancy.
I felt that knife piercing my heart as my mind started screaming, “I can’t do this again.”
Then he patted my knee and said or it could be cancer.
I felt my blood slowly start to drain to my feet and I felt the icy fingers of fear penetrating my very being. Just as I felt I was going to pass out, this great strength started flowing over me and I heard a soft voice say, “not mine will but thine be done.” I then felt loving arms wrap around me and I knew whatever the outcome I would be okay.
In 2003 after mom had been called home my husband was involved in an accident that left us without income for three months. Once again panic set in, “How are we going to get through.” Again those loving arms reached for me and that familiar voice whispered, “All will be well.” I knew without a doubt His promises are sure.
Now here I am facing that uncertain future. As He promised, my knee is healing rapidly and through all the changes and uncertainty at work I have a job and I will be able to work; yet we will be reduced to one income for the month of November. He has assured me that our financial obligations will be met, but here I am already doubting and questioning.
There is an internal struggle within me as a part of me is so amazed that even a part of me could question. After all He and I have been through not one time has He broke a promise to me. Hence that powerful question, “Where Is Your Faith?”
"Facing the Storms of Life