Saturday, September 6, 2025

Understanding the Depth of the Atonement

 In this journey we call life we find ourselves on smooth waters, rough waters, or raging waters.  Each of us facing different journeys with different challenges.  In 2020 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and come to find out a very special friend had been diagnosed with Ovarian cancer.  We talked daily as we shared our mutual journey of cancer together.  The day I was told I was cancer free I was notified by my friend's husband that she had passed away from her cancer.  I spent many years coming to terms with survivor guilt and questioning the Lord "why her? why not me."  It took me a couple years to come to peace with the Lord's decision to take her and not me.

Fast forward to July 2025, I begun to not feel well and no one could give me any answers.  I found myself in our local ER's and on the third visit I was told my abdomen was full of fluid.  They drained a large amount of fluid and then I found out the fluid they had drained was filled with cancer cells.  I started to spiral into a deep despair and panic.  Anyone who hears "cancer" can relate.  I spent a month trying to get more answers and referral to our local cancer center with no luck.  It appears now that physicians don't have the time to listen to their patients let alone try and place themselves in their patients'shoes.  I was met with indifference and I can't help you.  I finally had my husband take me to University of Utah where I knew they would get me into Huntsman.  For the first time I was listened to and they immediately reached out to Huntsman who admitted me.  The month leading up to that decision I found myself engulfed in great despair and daily pleading with the Lord for some sort of understanding.  Hadn't I already endured enough?  While I was uttering those self serving prayers the Heavens appeared closed; but in the deepest darkest moment of my despair my prayers changed and then I felt the warmth of the Heavens once again surrounding me.

I have been reading talks given by the brethren in search of understanding and I recently came across a portion of a talk Elder Bednar had given where he talked about the Atonement.  I ate up every word.  He spoke about Nephi a Book of Mormon Prophet who had angered his two elder brothers and they in return bound him and were talking about killing him.  Nephi offered a heartfelt prayer to the Lord:  "O Lord, according to my faith which is in thee, wilt thou deliver me from the hands of my brethren, yea, even give me strength that I may burst these bands with which I am bound," (1 Nephi 7:17)  Elder Bednar then explained what his prayer would have been, "..My prayer would have included a request for something bad to happen to my brothers and ended with the phase 'Please get me out of this mess now!"  He then went on to explain something that I had missed in reading this passage many times, "It is especially interesting to me that Nephi did not pray as I would have prayed, to have his circumstances changed.  Rather, he prayed for the strength to change his circumstances..."  His inspired words spoke deeply to my soul as I realized that during my dark days I had been praying for the Lord to change my circumstances.

After a couple surgeries and hospital stays at Huntsman I now know the cancer that I am dealing with; like my beloved friend I am facing an ovarian cancer that worked itself into the lining of my stomach.  I was blessed to have an amazing surgeon and the Lord's watchful eye over me during the two surgeries.  I still have my dark moments of despair as I have been preparing myself for the next leg of my journey treatment.  As a hospice nurse I saw the effects of chemo and it left some deep anti chemo sentiments but my surgeon has been a great cheerleader in trying to ease those fears and cheering me on.  Elder Bednar closed his thoughts with this profound statement that I have been clinging to, "The enabling power of the Atonement of Christ strengthens us to do things we could never do on our own..."  At this time I am relying on that power to keep me moving forward through this new journey and not fall into deep despair.

How grateful I am for the companionship of the Holy Ghost who when he sees me starting to mentally fray leads me to a place of peace either through inspired music, the brethren or my beloved scriptures.  During the first leg of this journey I found myself in one of my dark moments and I came across a talk given by President Holland who talked about ministering angels and then referencing 2 Kings 6:16, 17:   "...Mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire..."  In his closing remarks he promised that "in your time of need if you could see past the veil you would see chariots of fire rushing to your protection."  I remember thinking, "I hope those chariots are surrounding me now."  There is no doubt in my mind that they were and still are.

I then read another quote from one of the brethren about our pioneer forebear's who are cheering us on from the other side.  I have felt that power also but the greatest power that has helped buoy me has been the heartfelt prayers on my behalf from friends and my beloved Branch Members.  The Lord has blessed me by surrounding me with the best of the best and how I love and appreciate them all!

For now I am physically healing and mentally preparing myself for the next leg of my journey and I know the Lord will have the best of the best who will be treating and watching over my treatment.  With that being said I am also sure that there will be days I will find myself close to the mental edge but because of all the love and support surrounding me here and from the other side of the veil I will pull myself back to face a new day. One of those cheering me on is my beloved friend who has whispered,  "you got this dude!"


Saturday, June 7, 2025

"What would it be like to hear the Savior pray for you?"

I was recently studying for a lesson and the author referenced a talk given by Tom Christofferson January 19, 2021. His talk was entitled “What would it be like to hear the Savior pray for you?” What a profound thought to ponder and reflect upon.  I have been reflecting on his question for the last few days and today while in the temple I found myself asking that question and wondering what words, would the Savior use to describe me.

Throughout our scriptures our Lord and Savior is described as one with compassion and filled with pure love.  I love the stories where the recipients bathe His feet with their tears and where one washed and anointed his feet with precious oils and her tears. Like the author shared, tears run freely as I too yearn for that day when I too may kiss his feet and bathe them with my tears.

The greatest act of His love was His eternal and infinite atonement.  What a great testimony to his pure love for each and everyone of us! After all He endured He still pleads unto our great eternal Father in our behalf.  Overcoming death for all of us and opening a grand door back to Him, I am amazed that He still pleads with our great Eternal Father in our behalf.  A group of people witnessed His pleading in their behalf first hand and documented, "And no tongue can speak, neither can there be written by any man, neither can the hearts of men conceive so great a marvelous things as we both saw and heard Jesus speak; and no one can conceive the joy which filled our souls at the time we heard him pray for us unto the Father."                       (3 Nephi 17:17)   

In the Doctrine and Covenants section 43:3-5 we have a glimpse of our Savior's pleadings to our great and Eternal Father: "Listen to him who is the advocate with the Father, who is pleading your cause before him--saying: Father, behold the sufferings and death of him who did no sin, in whom thou wast well pleased; behold the blood of thy Son which was shed, the blood of him whom thou gavest that thyself might be glorified; Wherefore, Father, spared these my brethren that believe on my name, that they may come unto me and have everlasting life."  Many of our scriptures tell us that narrow is the way and strait is the path, no unclean thing can dwell in our Father's presence, mercy and justice, and the only way to our Father's presence is thorough His beloved son who is our advocate.  I am familiar with many advocates but the one true advocate that I need is my Lord and Savior.  My elder brother and best friend.

Brother Christofferson asked, "Have you ever closed your eyes and imagined what it would feel like to see and hear your Savior pray to His Father for you?  Perhaps He would express gratitude for the desire of your heart to follow Him, for the gifts you bring, for your kindness to His children, for your patience in bearing up in challenging situations, for other things that only He and you know about yourself.  Imagine hearing Him plead that your faith will hold strong and continue to grow, that your ability to be His hands in the world will be enhanced, that your courage will not fail, that the challenges and worries only you and He know you bear will become a source of strength, that you will have everlasting life through your faith in Him. What would it feel like to see and hear Him express his love for His Father and for you?"  I have had glimpses of where I have felt His love for His Father and for me and the joy that fills the soul is so incomprehensible words fail to describe but it forever lingers in ones heart where during your dark times that brilliant light of peace and love chases away the darkness.  As I have studied my scriptures I have found that others have also felt that pure unconditional love and at times they cannot even put that wonderful feeling into words but their experiences speak as a witness to the truthfulness of what I have witnessed and felt.  "By the mouth of two or three witnesses shall every word be established." (2 Corinthians 13:1)

Brother Christofferson then closes with this thought, "Having absorbed these things, is there anything you would hold back from Him? Is there anything He could ask that you would not want to offer, and offer wholeheartedly? And then, could you imagine that you know any individual you would not wish to likewise experience this same overwhelming miracle of love? How would such an experience change your life, your focus, your gratitude and your prayers?"

As I was typing Brother Christoffersons closing thoughts I found myself answering, "No, there is nothing I would hold back from Him, because He is the only one that truly understands my struggles. No, there is nothing that I would not offer, (I just wish I had more to offer) and yes He has my whole heart.  Yes, like Alma, "Oh that I were an angel..."  I have personally tasted His great love and joy and peace to which you want to shout it off a mountain top for all to hear because truly there is no greater gift than understanding and feeling His divine love for you!  My experiences with His love has totally changed my life.  Like Alma the younger, "I became a new creature." My focus is always on Him and how can I please Him, my heart is full of gratitude and I feel like I can never repay or thank Him enough for loving a soul that was so proud and rebellious as mine.  My prayers are intimate because I know He hears and understands.  He is truly my best friend.  In my darkest hours of gloom He is always near bringing peace and comfort to my troubled heart.

If I was present and heard my best friend praying for me, I would be on my knees kissing His feet as my tears freely flowing; my heart would be so full it would feel like it was bursting out of my chest and then I would throw my arms around Him and lean my head against His chest and thank Him for all He has done for me and then I would cry and cry and cry until the tears were gone and letting Him know oh, how much I love you! and He then would wrap His arms around me and He would softly answer, "I love you too."  Then at that moment all the heartaches from my mortal journey would be healed.

There is my answer even now tears of joy are flowing just typing what I would feel if I witnessed my best friend praying for me.  As you go through your days reflect on this :
"What would it be like to hear the Savior pray for me?"  


 


Saturday, May 3, 2025

The Loneliness Only the Lord Understands

 In the Bible we are taught, "Foxes have their holes, and the birds of the air have their nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head."

That is why He is the only one who truly understands the lonely journey so many endure. Quietly they travel on a well worn path, sharing a smile with each traveler they pass.

They do their best to bring a ray of sunshine to each person they greet; but once their day ends they are greeted by a silent home.  As they enter they feel a sorrow and loneliness that no other sees. But they have a Heavenly friend who fills their home with love and peace which comforts their wounded heart.

He then whispers in their ear, "The day will come if you continue to endure that you will once again be surrounded by your loved ones and you will never again feel alone."

Comforted by His promise their ready to greet each new day with a smile and offer words of comfort to all the fellow travelers that they meet.

Wednesday, November 6, 2024

I can only Imagaine

I listen to a Christian Radio station each day and some of the songs just really speak to me. There is one song where the singer is talking about Heaven and how "I can only Imagine" how it would look.   As I was doing my daily scripture study, I came across this verse in 4th Nephi 1:15-17:

"And it came to pass that there was no contention in the land, because of the love of God which did dwell in the hearts of the people. And there were no envying’s, nor strife’s, nor tumults, nor whoredoms, nor lying’s, nor murders, nor any manner of lasciviousness; and surely there could not be a happier people among all the people who had been created by the hand of God. There were no robbers, nor murderers, neither were there Lamanites, nor any manner of -ites, but they were one, the children of Christ, and heirs to the kingdom of God."

I don't know how many times I have read this passage of scriptures but this time reading the words sunk deep into my soul and I found myself thinking, If I could “only imagine" this beautiful moment in time.  How great it would have been to have been a part of that people's history during that moment in time!  They had the opportunity of spending quality time with our beloved Savior, which set them up for this beautiful moment in their history.  

As I was re-reading their words these words started running through my mind:

"Imagine if you will a time and place where there were no contentions throughout all the land.

A place in which there were no envying’s, or strife, no tumult, or lyings,

  no robbers, or murderers or labels of any kind.

A place in which happier people dwell.

How can that be you say?

When you open yourself up and let the pure love of God flow deep in your heart

You'll become one with Christ and our Eternal Father, and then you shall know that one day soon 

you'll return as an heir in the Kingdom of  God who created you." 

I can only imagine what a wonderful day that will be and what a wonderful world this would be if more would open their hearts to the pure love of God so that we could truly see this wonderful creation our Father created for us in its pure and beautiful state.  At times I see wonderful glimpses but how my heart yearns for the day there is only pure joy and peace in all the land.

 

Sunday, October 27, 2024

Mortality Works! (by Elder Brooks P Hales)

 I love General Conference; my cup is always filled with their inspired words. Elder Brook P. Hales' address was entitled, "Mortality Works!" When I heard that title, I initially scoffed, thinking, "Was he crazy?" (I know, scoffing at an Area Seventy isn't cool!) I had just been visiting my adopted family in Florida who had evacuated due to Hurricane Melvin, and I was heartbroken for an aunt who lost everything dear to her in that same storm. Then, seeing the devastation in my mom's home state of North Carolina, I found myself approaching his talk with a mortal, rather than a spiritual, perspective.

As I truly listened to his inspired words, however, my eternal eyes and heart opened. Elder Hales started with a story about an “older sister” whom he was assigned to visit as a home teacher. He explained her health struggles and a lifetime of chronic pain. Divorced at 32 with four young children to raise, she remarried at 50, only to lose her second husband at 66. She lived 26 more years as a widow but remained a faithful covenant-keeper. She served in her temple, dedicated herself to genealogy, and collected and wrote family histories. Despite all she faced, she was known for her cheerful countenance and gracious personality. A few months after her passing, one of her sons shared an experience he had in the temple. By the power of the Holy Ghost, he learned that his mother had a message for him. Without audible words or vision, he felt her unmistakable message: “I want you to know that mortality works. I now understand why everything happened as it did—and it’s all OK.”

We have all faced dark moments and despair, so to hear the words, “Mortality works,” is a remarkable message. Elder Hales taught that mortality was designed by a wise and perfect Heavenly Father who did not create us to fail. His plan allows us to rise above mortal struggles. Elder Hales quoted Moses 1:39, “This is my work and my glory—to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.” He explained that to be beneficiaries of the Lord’s work, we must expect to be schooled and taught and to pass through the refiner’s fire, sometimes to our utter limits. Avoiding challenges would prevent us from becoming what God designed. So, we shouldn’t be surprised when hard times come. These moments help us learn true charity and patience, and we must bear up under our difficulties.

Elder Hales added that when we feel distraught or overwhelmed, it helps to remember Lehi’s counsel to his son Jacob, “Thou hast suffered afflictions and much sorrow… nevertheless… (God) shall consecrate thine afflictions for thy gain.” He reminded us that while this life is a testing ground and dark clouds will sometimes hang over us, Mosiah 23:22 offers reassurance: “Nevertheless—whosoever putteth his trust in (The Lord) the same shall be lifted up at the last day.”

He then shared his experiences during what he called his “High School years,” which had profoundly affected him. His testimony was powerful: “I bear personal witness that the Lord can strengthen us and bear us up in whatever difficulties we are called upon to experience during our sojourn in this vale of tears.” Reflecting on Paul’s “thorn in his side,” he recalled the Lord’s assurance: “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

Elder Hales also shared about his own mother, whose life offered a final example that “mortality works.” She had faced challenges from childhood, battling polio and lifelong discomfort in her left leg, along with difficult financial and physical circumstances. Still, she remained faithful to her covenants and served her family, neighbors, and ward. During her last years, she suffered from dementia and eventually passed away alone. Yet, he had a vivid dream of her after her passing. In his office, she appeared to him with a radiance he couldn’t fully describe—a beauty that was spiritually stunning. He felt her love for him, and he knew she was healed, happy, and ready for her glorious resurrection. He knew then, for certain, that mortality worked for her, and it would for all of us.

He referenced a quote by the Prophet Joseph Smith: “The spirits of the just are exalted to a greater and more glorious work… (in) the world of spirits.” “They are not far from us and know and understand our thoughts, feelings, and emotions.” Elder Hales concluded with his testimony, “As we receive the ordinances of the gospel, enter covenants with God, keep those covenants, repent, serve others, and endure to the end, we can have assurance and complete trust in the Lord that mortality works! I testify of Jesus Christ and that our glorious future with our Heavenly Father is made possible by the grace and Atonement of the Savior. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.”

Like many of you, I have faced dark times where I wondered if it all was worth it. But I testify that as I strive to keep my covenants and serve others, I feel that our Father’s plan is perfect, and mortality truly works! I am so grateful to know the worth of my soul to our Heavenly Father. As we continue to trust Him and His perfect plan, we, too, shall have joy and a glorious resurrection!

Thursday, September 26, 2024

Power of Prayer

 I recently ended a facebook post with #prayersareanswered.  I had been praying to the Lord about a situation that had come up and He did answer the prayer I had prayed but not in the way I wanted.  Michael McClean has a song entitled:  "Unanswered Yet? The Prayer"  In which he sings about ones silent pleadings not being answered in our time but in the Lords time and how our prayers are written on a Heavenly Roll.  

This year we are studying the Book of Mormon and I recently came across one of my favorite verses  where Alma is teaching about the coming of Christ, His infinite Atonement and how to "call upon" our Father in Heaven:  "Yea, cry unto him for mercy, for he is mighty to save.  Yea, humble yourselves, and continue in prayer unto him.  Cry unto him when you are in you fields, yea, over all your flocks.  Cry unto him in your houses, yea, over all your households, both morning, mid-day and evening.  Yea, cry unto him against the power of your enemies.  Yea, cry unto him against the devil, who is an enemy to all righteousness.  Cry unto him over the crops of your fields, that ye may prosper in them.  Cry over the flocks of your fields that they may increase.  But this is not all, ye must pour out your souls in your closets, and your secret places, and in the wilderness.  Yea, when you do not cry unto the Lord, let your hearts be full drawn out in prayer unto him continually for your welfare and also for the welfare of those who are around you."   (Alma 34:18-27)

Today as I was sitting in the temple I had many of my prayers that I had prayed run through my mind and how those prayers changed with each changing season.  Some are still waiting to be answered, with  many being answered not the way I wanted; but answered by a loving Heavenly Father who  answered them in His own loving  way.  

Then these words started flowing:

In the Spring of my life I learned a simple Child's prayer, "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.  His love be with me through the night, and wake me in morning light.  And if I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.  In Jesus name Amen."

In the summer of my life my prayers were all about me, and were not answered in the way I would have liked them to be. Instead they were answered with a gentle yet painful no or a tender loving "not yet my precious child."

Now in the autumn of my life my prayers are no longer about me but for those I love. I've learned the gentle no was for my own growth and I've had wonderful blessings poured upon my head when I accepted "not my will be done but thine will be done."

When I come to the winter of my life I'm not sure how my prayers will change but I hope with my new pearls of  wisdom that I will continue to silently plead for others and patiently endure the painful "no's" and always remember not mine will be done but thine be done.

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

Honorable or Valiant

Numerous times these last few weeks I have heard a statement made by our Prophet Joseph Smith, "As you draw closer to the Lord you lose all desire to sin..."  My mind then turned to a comment I believe Elder Maxwell made about letting go of our "favorite sins."  As I have been pondering on why the Prophets Joseph's words sunk so deep into my heart and then hearing Elder Maxwell's voice as he talked about "favorite sins."  I have been having do some deep soul searching.  In the midst of my soul searching I hear a commanding voice, "Remember how great the worth of a soul is to me."

I am amazed at the wonderful growth and blessings the Lord has poured upon my head.  But during this last bout of health issues I am reminded by Elder Maxwell, "The Lord requires you to lay all upon the altar of discipleship."  I lamented to a beloved friend, "Haven't I already gave enough."  Yes, I know that was a foolish statement.  The Lord knows my heart better than even myself and He is offering me the opportunity of getting my hearts desire but yet here I am dragging my feet and asking "why?"  I then came across a conference talk Elder Scott had given in Oct 1995 entitled "Trust in the Lord"  I had a priesthood blessing Sunday and the first words were "Trust in the Lord."  Coincidence?  I think not.  Here are Elder Scotts words that spoke to my troubled soul:  " ...Now may I share some suggestions with you who face the second source of adversity, the testing that a wise Heavenly Father determines is needed even when you are living a worthy, righteous life and are obedient to His commandments.

Just when all seems to be going right, challenges often come in multiple doses applied simultaneously. When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more (see Prov. 3:11–12). He therefore gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for your everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain.

When you face adversity, you can be led to ask many questions. Some serve a useful purpose; others do not. To ask, Why does this have to happen to me? Why do I have to suffer this, now? What have I done to cause this? will lead you into blind alleys. It really does no good to ask questions that reflect opposition to the will of God. Rather ask, What am I to do? What am I to learn from this experience? What am I to change? Whom am I to help? How can I remember my many blessings in times of trial? Willing sacrifice of deeply held personal desires in favor of the will of God is very hard to do. Yet, when you pray with real conviction, “Please let me know Thy will” and “May Thy will be done,” you are in the strongest position to receive the maximum help from your loving Father.

This life is an experience in profound trust—trust in Jesus Christ, trust in His teachings, trust in our capacity as led by the Holy Spirit to obey those teachings for happiness now and for a purposeful, supremely happy eternal existence. To trust means to obey willingly without knowing the end from the beginning (see Prov. 3:5–7). To produce fruit, your trust in the Lord must be more powerful and enduring than your confidence in your own personal feelings and experience.

To exercise faith is to trust that the Lord knows what He is doing with you and that He can accomplish it for your eternal good even though you cannot understand how He can possibly do it. We are like infants in our understanding of eternal matters and their impact on us here in mortality. Yet at times we act as if we knew it all. When you pass through trials for His purposes, as you trust Him, exercise faith in Him, He will help you. That support will generally come step by step, a portion at a time. While you are passing through each phase, the pain and difficulty that comes from being enlarged will continue. If all matters were immediately resolved at your first petition, you could not grow. Your Father in Heaven and His Beloved Son love you perfectly. They would not require you to experience a moment more of difficulty than is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or for that of those you love.

As in all things, the Master is our perfect example. Who could have asked with more perfect faith, greater obedience, or more complete understanding than did He when He asked His Father in Gethsemane: “O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt” (Matt. 26:39). Later He pled twice again: “O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done” (Matt. 26:42; see also Matt. 26:44)."

This inspired  sentence hit me :  "They would not require you to experience a moment more of difficulty than is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or for that of those you love."  

I then found myself once again turning to Elder Maxell how I love this great scholars teachings!  His talk also came from the Oct 95 General Conference and is entitled "Swallowed up in the Will of the Father."  In this conference address he talked about consecration.  A law I have covenanted to uphold.  In his talk he talks about the members as a whole and then the "honorable but not valiant group" and those who are "engrossingly entangled in the ungodliness of the world."  He also talks about "sins of omission."  Alas my achilles heel aka my favorite sins.  I now understand that the Lord is wanting to "stretch me" and He would like me to lay aside my "sins of omission."  As Elder Maxwell points out I need to quit "taking my own temperature and focus on the burning fevers of those around me."  I believe that is one the Adversary's greatest tools, getting us to focus only on us.

I have some course redirections that I need to make, I just hope I have the faith and stamina to allow my Heavenly Father to lead me.  Do I have the courage to become a Valiant Saint?  Or do I just stay as an Honorable Saint?  I know my hearts desire is to become the Valiant Saint but that requires "greater consecration and allowing my will to be swallowed up into the Lord's will."  The Spirit is good, as I have been going back and forth on my favorite sins I have been feeling that I would somehow not be me, yet Elder Maxwell made it perfectly clear:  "So many of us are kept from eventual consecration because we mistakenly think that, somehow, by letting our will be swallowed up in the will of God, we lose our individuality (see Mosiah 15:7). What we are really worried about, of course, is not giving up self, but selfish things—like our roles, our time, our preeminence, and our possessions."  Ouch! A bitter pill to swallow when you realize your not wanting to give up "selfish things."

The hymn "More Holiness Give me" has also been running through my mind especially the lyrics, "more Savior like thee..."  Ouch again.  Because of my hearts desire I am going to have to learn to let go of my selfish things and let my Heavenly Father mold me into the daughter He knows I can be.  Thank goodness He is patient with this murmuring child oh how I love Him and hope for the day when I no longer do things that cause Him grief.

In closing may you glean some pearls from Elder Maxwell's inspired words as you decide do I want to be honorable or valiant?

"Swallowed Up in the Will of the Father”


Whenever Church members speak of consecration, it should be done reverently while acknowledging that each of us “come[s] short of the glory of God,” some of us far short (Rom. 3:23). Even the conscientious have not arrived, but they sense the shortfall and are genuinely striving. Consolingly, God’s grace flows not only to those “who love [Him] and keep all [His] commandments,” but likewise to those “that [seek] so to do” (D&C 46:9).

A second group of members are “honorable” but not “valiant.” They are not really aware of the gap nor of the importance of closing it (see D&C 76:75, 79). These “honorable” individuals are certainly not miserable nor wicked, nor are they unrighteous and unhappy. It is not what they have done but what they have left undone that is amiss. For example, if valiant, they could touch others deeply instead of merely being remembered pleasantly.

In a third group are those who are grossly entangled with the “ungodliness” of the world, reminding us all, as Peter wrote, that if “[we are] overcome” by something worldly, “[we are] brought in bondage” (2 Pet. 2:19).

If one “mind[s] the things of the flesh” (Rom. 8:5), he cannot “have the mind of Christ” (1 Cor. 2:16) because his thought patterns are “far from” Jesus, as are the desires or the “intents of his heart” (Mosiah 5:13). Ironically, if the Master is a stranger to us, then we will merely end up serving other masters. The sovereignty of these other masters is real, even if it sometimes is subtle, for they do call their cadence. Actually, “we are all enlisted” (Hymns, 1985, no. 250), if only in the ranks of the indifferent.

To the extent that we are not willing to be led by the Lord, we will be driven by our appetites, or we will be greatly preoccupied with the lesser things of the day. The remedy is implicit in the marvelous lamentation of King Benjamin: “For how knoweth a man the master whom he has not served, and who is a stranger unto him, and is far from the thoughts and intents of his heart?” (Mosiah 5:13). For many moderns, sad to say, the query “What think ye of Christ?” (Matt. 22:42) would be answered, “I really don’t think of Him at all!”

Consider three examples of how honorable people in the Church keep back a portion and thus prevent greater consecration (see Acts 5:1–4).

A sister gives commendable, visible civic service. Yet even with her good image in the community, she remains a comparative stranger to Jesus’ holy temples and His holy scriptures, two vital dimensions of discipleship. But she could have Christ’s image in her countenance (see Alma 5:14).

An honorable father, dutifully involved in the cares of his family, is less than kind and gentle with individual family members. Though a comparative stranger to Jesus’ gentleness and kindness, which we are instructed to emulate, a little more effort by this father would make such a large difference.

Consider the returned missionary, skills polished while serving an honorable mission, striving earnestly for success in his career. Busy, he ends up in a posture of some accommodation with the world. Thus he forgoes building up the kingdom first and instead builds up himself. A small course correction now would make a large, even destinational, difference for him later on.

These deficiencies just illustrated are those of omission. Once the telestial sins are left behind and henceforth avoided, the focus falls ever more on the sins of omission. These omissions signify a lack of qualifying fully for the celestial kingdom. Only greater consecration can correct these omissions, which have consequences just as real as do the sins of commission. Many of us thus have sufficient faith to avoid the major sins of commission, but not enough faith to sacrifice our distracting obsessions or to focus on our omissions.

Most omissions occur because we fail to get outside ourselves. We are so busy checking on our own temperatures, we do not notice the burning fevers of others even when we can offer them some of the needed remedies, such as encouragement, kindness, and commendation. The hands which hang down and most need to be lifted up belong to those too discouraged even to reach out anymore.

Actually, everything depends—initially and finally—on our desires. These shape our thought patterns. Our desires thus precede our deeds and lie at the very cores of our souls, tilting us toward or away from God (see D&C 4:3). God can “educate our desires” (see Joseph F. Smith, Gospel Doctrine, 5th ed., Salt Lake City: Deseret Book Co., 1939, p. 297). Others seek to manipulate our desires. But it is we who form the desires, the “thoughts and intents of [our] hearts” (Mosiah 5:13).

The end rule is “according to [our] desires … shall it be done unto [us]” (D&C 11:17), “for I, the Lord, will judge all men according to their works, according to the desire of their hearts” (D&C 137:9; see also Alma 41:5D&C 6:20, 27). One’s individual will thus remains uniquely his. God will not override it nor overwhelm it. Hence we’d better want the consequences of what we want!

Another cosmic fact: only by aligning our wills with God’s is full happiness to be found. Anything less results in a lesser portion (see Alma 12:10–11). The Lord will work with us even if, at first, we “can no more than desire” but are willing to “give place for a portion of [His] words” (Alma 32:27). A small foothold is all He needs! But we must desire and provide it.

So many of us are kept from eventual consecration because we mistakenly think that, somehow, by letting our will be swallowed up in the will of God, we lose our individuality (see Mosiah 15:7). What we are really worried about, of course, is not giving up self, but selfish things—like our roles, our time, our preeminence, and our possessions. No wonder we are instructed by the Savior to lose ourselves (see Luke 9:24). He is only asking us to lose the old self in order to find the new self. It is not a question of one’s losing identity but of finding his true identity! Ironically, so many people already lose themselves anyway in their consuming hobbies and preoccupations but with far, far lesser things.

Ever observant, in both the first and second estates, consecrated Jesus always knew in which direction He faced: He consistently emulated His Father: “The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise” (John 5:19), for “I have suffered the will of the Father in all things from the beginning” (3 Ne. 11:11).

As one’s will is increasingly submissive to the will of God, he can receive inspiration and revelation so much needed to help meet the trials of life. In the trying and very defining Isaac episode, faithful Abraham “staggered not … through unbelief” (Rom. 4:20). Of that episode John Taylor observed that “nothing but the spirit of revelation could have given him this confidence, and … sustained him under these peculiar circumstances” (in Journal of Discourses, 14:361). Will we too trust the Lord amid a perplexing trial for which we have no easy explanation? Do we understand—really comprehend—that Jesus knows and understands when we are stressed and perplexed? The complete consecration which effected the Atonement ensured Jesus’ perfect empathy; He felt our very pains and afflictions before we did and knows how to succor us (see Alma 7:11–122 Ne. 9:21). Since the Most Innocent suffered the most, our own cries of “Why?” cannot match His. But we can utter the same submissive word “nevertheless …” (Matt. 26:39).

Progression toward submission confers another blessing: an enhanced capacity for joy. Counseled President Brigham Young, “If you want to enjoy exquisitely, become a Latter-day Saint, and then live the doctrine of Jesus Christ” (in Journal of Discourses, 18:247).

Thus, brothers and sisters, consecration is not resignation or a mindless caving in. Rather, it is a deliberate expanding outward, making us more honest when we sing, “More used would I be” (“More Holiness Give Me,” Hymns, 1985, no. 131). Consecration, likewise, is not shoulder-shrugging acceptance, but, instead, shoulder-squaring to better bear the yoke.

Consecration involves pressing forward “with a steadfastness in Christ” with a “brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men … [while] feasting upon the word of Christ” (2 Ne. 31:20). Jesus pressed forward sublimely. He did not shrink, such as by going only 60 percent of the distance toward the full atonement. Instead, He “finished [His] preparations” for all mankind, bringing a universal resurrection—not one in which 40 percent of us would have been left out (see D&C 19:18–19).

Each of us might well ask, “In what ways am I shrinking or holding back?” Meek introspection may yield some bold insights! For example, we can tell much by what we have already willingly discarded along the pathway of discipleship. It is the only pathway where littering is permissible, even encouraged. In the early stages, the debris left behind includes the grosser sins of commission. Later debris differs; things begin to be discarded which have caused the misuse or underuse of our time and talent.

Along this pathway leading to consecration, stern and unsought challenges sometimes hasten this jettisoning, which is needed to achieve increased consecration (see Hel. 12:3). If we have grown soft, hard times may be necessary. If we are too contented, a dose of divine discontent may come. A relevant insight may be contained in reproof. A new calling beckons us away from comfortable routines wherein the needed competencies have already been developed. One may be stripped of accustomed luxury so that the malignant mole of materialism may be removed. One may be scorched by humiliation so pride can be melted away. Whatever we lack will get attention, one way or another.

John Taylor indicated that the Lord may even choose to wrench our very heartstrings (see Journal of Discourses, 14:360). If our hearts are set too much upon the things of this world, they may need to be wrenched, or broken, or undergo a mighty change (see Alma 5:12).

Consecration is thus both a principle and a process, and it is not tied to a single moment. Instead, it is freely given, drop by drop, until the cup of consecration brims and finally runs over.

Long before that, however, as Jesus declared, we must “settle this in [our] hearts” that we will do what He asks of us (JST, Luke 14:28). President Young further counseled us “to submit to the hand of the Lord, … and acknowledge his hand in all things, … then you will be exactly right; and until you come to that point, you cannot be entirely right. That is what we have to come to” (in Journal of Discourses, 5:352).

Thus, acknowledging God’s hand includes, in the words of the Prophet Joseph, trusting that God has made “ample provision” beforehand to achieve all His purposes, including His purposes in our lives (Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith, p. 220). Sometimes He clearly directs; other times it seems He merely permits some things to happen. Therefore, we will not always understand the role of God’s hand, but we know enough of his heart and mind to be submissive. Thus when we are perplexed and stressed, explanatory help is not always immediately forthcoming, but compensatory help will be. Thus our process of cognition gives way to our personal submission, as we experience those moments when we learn to “be still, and know that I am God” (Ps. 46:10).

Then, the more one’s will is thus “swallowed up,” the more his afflictions, rather than necessarily being removed, will be “swallowed up in the joy of Christ” (Alma 31:38).

Seventy years ago, Lord Moulton coined a perceptive phrase, “obedience to the unenforceable,” describing “the obedience of a man to that which he cannot be forced to obey” (“Law And Manners,” Atlantic Monthly, July 1924, p. 1). God’s blessings, including those associated with consecration, come by unforced obedience to the laws upon which they are predicated (see D&C 130:20–21). Thus our deepest desires determine our degree of “obedience to the unenforceable.” God seeks to have us become more consecrated by giving everything. Then, when we come home to Him, He will generously give us “all that [He] hath” (D&C 84:38).

In conclusion, the submission of one’s will is really the only uniquely personal thing we have to place on God’s altar. The many other things we “give,” brothers and sisters, are actually the things He has already given or loaned to us. However, when you and I finally submit ourselves, by letting our individual wills be swallowed up in God’s will, then we are really giving something to Him! It is the only possession which is truly ours to give!

Consecration thus constitutes the only unconditional surrender which is also a total victory!

May we deeply desire that victory, I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.