These past few months I have faced a trial that I felt that in the end I would totally be destroyed.
Elder Neal A Maxwell once commented that "...a true disciple of Jesus Christ will be called to offer their all on that sacrificial table."
Due to my career choice I am surrounded by many whose trials are heavy to bear and hear their tearful pleads of "My God, My God why hast thou forsaken me?" My heart broke for them as I wondered myself, "Heavenly Father why hast thou forsaken them?"
Over the years I have faced many trials and challenges but the gravest I faced were during my years of inactivity. I faced some very dark times but it was during those dark times when I was at my lowest of lows I was surrounded by angels who came and offered me encouragement to keep going and love that is so very special and deep. I shall always cherish those treasured moments.
When I returned to activity a new glorious chapter opened up for me. It has been a wonderful journey and the blessings I have received have been so remarkable. "I stand all amazed..."
Yes, I have had many "growing moments" which caused me a little concern but were just like little speed bumps I had to overcome and the lessons learned during those moments also were cherished and again I felt angels in attendance.
This latest trial was much more than a speed bump and when I reached out to those angels who had brought me such comfort before they weren't there. I felt totally alone and I felt as if the heavens themself had withdrawn their peaceful light. It was a very dark period for me.
At my darkest moment a friend reached out and it was then that I learned that not all my angels would be coming from the other side. There were many here who loved me so very much that they extended their hands to lift my mine.
One such angel is my true blue friend who is always there. As she shared with me,"I just know when you really need me." And she comes running.
Another is a friend I met last year.
She is a remarkable woman who has traveled the same dark road I was traveling.
I spent many a hour with her crying and leaning on her much needed strength.
Another special one called and continues to call me each and every day.
Just seeing her number on my phone makes my heart smile.
I have another friend who is an RN who picked up a shift at the hospital the day of my surgery.
Her presence eased my troubled mind and her experience and counsel saved me some unnecessary pain (although it did give me a mild drug hangover). Knowing that she would be with me in recovery I knew all was well. (for me anyway, I was so loopie loo when she got me I'm sure she got an earful)
In my in and out phase I heard her reassuring the transporter that she was able to take me to my room and she related to my husband all went well.
How I love these amazing women.
Finally a cna that I have worked with over the years came and sat with me for hours. I was so loopy and groggy but oh how I love her. I remember her looking so exhausted. I am sure she had come over after her long shift. There was so much I wanted to share with her for sitting with me but I just could not get my brain and mouth to work.
Later my husband came to check on me and showed me some beautiful flowers that my beloved Jackpot Branch had sent and a beautiful wooden boxed filled with two books about angels and some other treasures just for me. My RN friend had brought the box with her for me when I awoke.
In that foggy state I remember thinking "Heavenly Father there are Angels amongst us and how grateful I am for these special angels."
Once home more angels appeared with cookies, cupcakes, chocolate and caffeine and meals;
with each one that graced our home I felt our Heavenly Father smile which my filled my heart with peace and joy.
I guess they had to step back so that I could allow my earthly angels a moment to comfort and console me.
Elder Holland gave a powerful talk about "The Ministry or Angels" as I read through it I felt it was a fitting tribute to those wonderful Angels who Ministered to me. Once again it has been confirmed deep within my soul that my Heavenly Father who loves me so very much will never leave me alone or leave me without comfort. He will send His most beautiful angels.
To those who continue to suffer I know our Heavenly Father will never leave you alone or without comfort.
Just as He did for me He will send His most beautiful angels to comfort you.
May you feel the truthfulness of these words as Elder Holland confirms the truthfulness of them.
As stated in our beautiful hymn, How Firm a Foundation,